Nervous tummy....

So today is game day and that means the outcome of a big fight, serious talks with characters, and hopefully some fun. Downside of all of this is that it also means my anxiety is in high gear and I have a nervous tummy that relates to the constant feeling of throwing up. My thoughts and deepest nerd prayers go to the dice gods in the hopes they grant our party with max damage, crits, and crit confirms...

Decisions of life, death, and the afterworld....

Let me begin by first say that this has nothing to do with the real human condition, a real human soul or life or death. This is dealing with our fictional game characters. My question to anyone that reads this is...what would your character do for love in their world? Of course it is a fictional world and I control my character, but you have to think of how your character acts, her alignment, past feelings/emotions, etc. when making a major decision. This is something that I had to do for my character this past weekend. My in-game boyfriend died, which was depressing enough, but then we get the option to bring him back, his god (so lovingly called the "Bitch Queen") will only do so if there is a trade/arrangement made. This arrangement is that my character has to give up her soul in order to get him back. So just a quick aside for anyone who doesn't know-in our game deities and the afterworld are a HUGE deal! Our characters all know that their gods actually do exist and see their actions. Likewise, if you die and don't have a god, then your soul can be brokered out to other gods or can walk the fade plane for all eternity. For each god, their afterlife is different, for a good natured god (which there are many and also many evil gods) the afterlife can be eternal peace. For my character, since she is an elf, the afterlife would be eternity of being with family, being able to hunt, etc. (which would be pretty sweet). So back to the main point...my character has to make the decision as to if she loves the other character enough to give up her soul to this god. What's the afterlife like for this god you might ask? Well of you have seen Pirates of the Caribbean and the Flying Dutchman part....that's pretty much it. You are stuck on a ship, constantly fighting and dying, and never really getting eternal peace. Granted my character is chaotic neutral aligned-so she loves to kill and fight and everything, but still not ideal for all eternity. The decision I made was hard but based on her actions and background (her father died when she was young and her mother has never forgiven herself-which accounts for my character's extreme upbringing) she agreed to the decision. When her boyfriend comes back to life though he is different. Our DM decided to mess with us and made it so for half the time he was there he was her personal attendant...only in an intimate way. So he comes back after having constant relations with his god (who has a charisma of 29 compared to my character's 12) and turns out he doesn't really feel the same way about my character as before. Now this could just be a temporary thing because I'm sure that being brought back to life isn't the most relaxing thing, so I find myself acting like the people in the movie "The Vow". I have to make my in-game boyfriend love me again. Now my character has to deal with all these consequences...do I tell my mother (who is going to beat my ass), should I tell my cleric/holy friends, and to what limits do I go to win back his love?? This question I pose again to you my readers....what would you do??