When is enough really enough??....

So I have to admit something, in my head when I wrote out my title, I said it in Carrie Bradshaw's voice.  As much as this blog is super nerdy, I have to say that I am really a girly girl and abso-fucking-lutely (get that reference??) love Sex in the City.  But enough of my digressions....(or is it??? No really it is..)

The topic at hand today, the one I have been thinking about and dealing with the past few days deals with a much more serious topic.  Well and let's be honest, when I say serious I of course mean in my fake little world of role playing.  Here's the skinny....on Sunday during our game my character's boyfriend died yet again.  Just for those keeping track, that is twice in a month period.  And now I really don't have anyway to get him back. I mean she already bargained his life for her soul with a deity and after you do that, really where do you have to go from there?!?!  My thought is really no where, unless I wanted to abandon my party and become an evil bandit (which actually I do want to, but I didn't want to be a huge dickbag) and have him come back that way.  Now I have to do some thinking about how my character is going to change and evolve.  The whole point of going through certain things is so that you can play your character through potentially tough situations not only in terms of combat, but just general situations (*salutes*) as well.  I think it would be ridiculous to play a character who went through terrible things, or really positive things, and didn't evolve.  I mean it's just like how people are now.  Put someone in a traumatic experience over and over and they are going to get messed up. Just in case someone hasn't really been keeping up with this character, let me tell you what has happened to her in the past MONTH...
   1. A party member died
   2. Her mom broke her jaw because said party member died
   3. Her boyfriend dies
   4. She sells her soul to an evil deity to get him to come back
   5. She tells her mom that her boyfriend died and she gave up her soul and her mother beats her unconcious
   6. Her mother abandons her
  7. She was poisoned and physically mutilated
  8. Her boyfriend dies again
   9. She is taken prisoner
-I would also like to add that she has been constantly berated by older NPCs for her decision and also has been knocked unconscious several times during combat thus almost resulting in her death.

I am really at a loss for how to play her now...should she be super possessive of the people in her party or should she become withdrawn and keep to herself.  Also, she is currently Chaotic Neutral alignment and has bordered on evil a few times, which is a reason why I don't think that she can just buck up and see the good (if there is any) in these situations.  She also doesn't have any decent role models that are within the good alignment because all the people she knows that are good are huge ass hats to her.  I really feel stuck with how to play, because obviously I don't want to retire her.  I made a plan that had her boyfriend lived throughout this situation then they could have run away and become evil pirates, but instead he died and she is sticking with the party.  She has never had anything positive happen to her in the game (I mean nothing...if there are cute guys they just fawn over the other girls in the party and not pay attention to her), so really there is nothing to hold her back from going down the evil drain.  Then I have to think about though, if I move her to evil which evil-Chaotc or Neutral evil??  Both are obviously bad, but I personally consider Chaotic evil to be worse (for a good example think Joffrey from Game of Thrones, the Joke from Batman, or Loki from Avengers) than Neutral Evil (Cersei from Game of thrones or the Emperor from Star Wars).  I mean both are pretty awful examples, but those are within the steps of alignment dropping she could take.  I have thought about it and obviously I am not going to kill the party (well unless they get in my way and then she might and that would only be in an extreme case), but other than that there really aren't many things that she wouldn't do or hasn't thought about doing. I think it is just an overall not great situation to be in with a character and I wish that it would be easier to figure out what I am going to do with her.  Should I keep her current alignment? Should I change to evil?  Is there another option I am not thinking about??? 

SUCCESS!!

It might be minor, but I have finally thwarted the evils of stock blog backgrounds.  Yes I know my blog is neither shabby nor chic; let's be honest it's really just shitty and craptastic, but I have finally done something that isn't courtesy of Google/Blogspot.  Your eyes can thank me later...

PS. For any grammar Nazis from the last post please take note that I used the correct form of "your/you're".

You're welcome... ;)

The Loss of Old Friends, New Adventures, and the What's What in My Life...

Okay okay....I'll admit it, I'm awful and if my blog were a baby I am pretty sure it would either be taken away by CPS or it would be dead in a corner somewhere.  Maybe a little too graphic...but in any I think it gets the point across. So what have I been doing so much that makes me sooo busy I can't tend to my little blog??  Well nothing really...I mean I did start a new game and have been obsessed on playing Borderlands (Danny is making me play the first before I can play the second one) and have just been painting my little heart out on those miniatures.  Some of you (well who am I kidding...probably none of you) might have been wondering what happened with that ole Dragon Age game I was playing.  Well let me tell you something about how I play RP games like that...I will run around and talk to everyone in the city and go into every building and break open every pot just to make sure I don't miss anything.  Danny often makes fun of me because I tend to spend 20 hrs in the beginning section of the game that you are supposed to leave after you reach level 5 or whatever.  So apparently my OCD in that aspect should have made it easy to meet new party members and such; I mean I almost had to murder a town to get a criminal out of prison and yet I managed to completely fail miserably at this one mission.  Allegedly you are suppose to either pick up this girl in a tavern or make friends with a mage and they will be a healer for your party and help you when you have to beat these bad ass evil mages at the top of a tower.  This bitch must have lived in the one damn tavern I didn't check because I missed meeting her...then the other old broad that can help you?  Well let's just say I pissed her off and she came at me with all the unholy magic wielded by those damn dirty mages and therefore I had to kill her.  I pretty much ended up with party of fighters that couldn't beat a super wizard. Danny even tried to beat the boss and he couldn't do it with my shitty party...which for anyone who knows my husband, is quite the feat for him not to do.  In the end my party is stuck in the top of a tower like some locked away princess duking it out with some mages that are going to spank the shit out of them and probably turn them into goats...

On a happier note though, I did start Borderlands.  I am currently playing a Siren (because she's pretty okay?!  I admit I am vain when it comes to video game characters and only play things that I find visual appealing to look at...I mean I figure if I'm going to have to look and listen to this chick for 40+ hrs, she might as well be easy on the eyes, so get off my back!)  I digress....so anyway, so far it is going pretty well, everything is a solo mission for I can't screw up not meeting the right people haha.  I'm just hoping the rest of the world of Pandora is more exciting than where I am, because I can only kill skags and bandits for so long without losing touch with humanity...plus I am sure the desert is doing nothing for my character's sweet sweet clothes and hair.  I hope for more updates that don't end so negatively as the last....

In real life news, I have been "commissioned" for my first miniature piece!!  I put commissioned in quotes because I think technically you are supposed to get paid when someone asks you do a piece, but I'm not...I'm just doing it because I love to and honestly I don't know if I am good enough to charge people yet.  I think I have to master eyes a bit more, because let's be honest, no one wants a elf ranger that has a lazy eye and looks half retarded.  So this guy is free except for the fact my colleague had to buy the figurine.  This should hopefully turn out to be a pretty cool little dude though....it is for a colleague who doesn't play, but wanted something bad ass that is Mizzou themed.  The figurine we went with is a dwarf with a hammer (or axe?) and a shield and is riding a bear (or in the words of my colleague "a manbearpig"...).  So hopefully when that comes in I can get it painted and maybe put some pictures up here so this thing is a little more pleasant to cast one's gaze upon. 

PS. I hate ending my sentences in a preposition, but I just couldn't find a way around it in that last sentence, so please don't murder me you grammar Nazis!!!