So I have been thinking about my character for a while and still haven't found the perfect way to play her. I do think however that I am going to hold off from making her evil for awhile....for now at least. But our DM said something during the game that got me thinking. He mentioned that he was surprised I hadn't found the correlation between my favorite character on BSG and their parent. Of course when he said that everyone thought he was talking about Adama and Lee, but I immediately knew who he was going for- Starbuck and her mother. During lunch today I took to listening over the episode of BSG (and today's post title) "Maelstom", to see if that would give me any clues as to how I should play my character. After watching and even during there really was a strong representation of these two characters that I was able to see in my character and her mother. Both are strong female characters and even in the episode Kara's mother says something along the lines of, "I am working to make you better and stronger, to fulfill your destiny." Of course in the time all Kara can think about is how her mother is never proud of her accomplishments or what she has already done, but can only think of ways that she has failed. In our game, I have felt the same way during interactions with my character's mother and have acted in the same way as Kara even (which I honestly feel is the way a normal person would act). So from this episode I think I have a better understanding of her role and what might lie ahead for her in this game.
In the meantime, she is still kind of going crazy after losing her boyfriend a few days ago. I like to think of her in the crazy Kara stage now, very Chaotic Neutral in her actions, withdrawn from her friends, and stuff like that. I am thinking that there will be a time when she breaks down and will just unload everything on someone (and I have in mind who that would be) and then work from there to "rebuild" her personality. I am definitely not changing her to a good alignment, but maybe just a more friendly CN (we'll just see how it goes). If this game and her storyline is going to be anything like the show, she needs to get her shit together and prepare for her destiny...
