My secret obsession....

Hi, my name is ______ and I have an addiction to...RPGs, and I don't mean like Fallout or Final Fantasy, I mean good ole nerdy RPGs where we literally sit in a basement, roll out a mat, get our figurines, and spend all day rolling d20s.  It's true I am sad (but just ever so slightly) to admit.  But let me explain how this started.  So my friends and Danny's friends have always played D&D and I always thought it was awful and boring and just didn't understand how they could spend so much time and waste their day (usually a good 8 hrs of it anyway) on playing one game that didn't have a board, cards, or a tv attached to it.  Well last year as our old friends graduated and moved away we gained a new group of friends, who oddly enough enjoyed all the nerdy games that Danny had played.  Of course there was instant bonding and ever since then they are people I consider to be very best friends.  As things are always changing (see previous post for more info) part of our little group got married and sadly enough moved away.  While we are very happy for the new life changes they are encountering, we of course miss the hell out of them and had to find a new routine.  You see these weren't ordinary hang out every once in a while friends, these were every weekend and sometimes all weekend hanging out with friends, so Danny and I found we had a lot so free time after their move.  But as our group got smaller, we also got to hang out with more friends from our other good friends and they all played D&D.  We were asked to play in a campaign and I figured what the heck, I had a good time playing at my friend's bachelor party so why not give it a try on a full scale campaign.  Danny helped me with my character and our friend the DM (Dungeon Master for those who don't play) helped to make my character a bit more interesting than just a stock person.  Armed and ready for my first campaign I ever so nervously started playing.  The first session was just like the first time having sex...awkward yet exciting.  I had no idea what I was doing and am surprised no one killed me then so that they didn't have answer all my questions.  But everyone soldiered on and I survived that time.  We play every other week and after the first time I couldn't wait to play again and see what would happen with all our characters and mostly try to figure out if I could survive and hold my own against the guys.  So to fast track all this, because I'm sure all you anon readers are bored or have gone to the next blog, we have been playing for several weeks and Danny and I even joined another group to play an Aliens themed campaign.  That's right, every weekend we now have a RPG in which to partake, but I still find a void.  I joke with Danny about this, but I am dead serious in reality...I am ready to quit my job and play every day.  If someone would pay me to I would, heck if it's a fetish that someone has I would gladly hook up a webcam and for $9.99 a min you too can watch me play my tiefling rogue ;).  But anyway I know the first step is admission, so there it is....Hi, my name is Nicole and I'm a D&D addict.

Ch-ch-changes

Just like the song, in case anyone wanted to sing that in their head while reading this...actually I hope that no one reads this as I don't have any followers.  Although blogspot tells me that apparently something has viewed my blog and it lives in Alaska, the US, and a state that I can't tell from the teenie tiny map is either the Middle East or the Mediterranean.  In any case, this post is about changes.  So many changes have happened from when I started this blog and there are more things that I wish would change.  I am still at the same job I was when I quit writing routinely on here, albeit in a different position.  I wouldn't say that I have a passion for my job anymore, in fact there is hardly anything there to be passionate about.  I would say that it takes a certain person to love mortgages.  But no matter...I realized that I have come to that point in my life when things should be changing and normally I don't particularly like change (aside from the occasional change of hair color) as I have routines that need to be kept-but that's really the OCD talking.  Right now though, I could really use some change.  I see how friends are growing up and getting careers, buying houses, and having babies.  Believe me, if you knew me, you would know babies are the last thing that I would ever want, but all the other changes are things that I have been waiting for what seems like forever.  I am ready to have a job that challenges me and is one that I can consider a career and not have to be slightly embarrassed that I am doing.  I would love to say that at least my job is easy and I don't have to think during the day...but that's just the problem, my job is literally too easy and doesn't require any thinking at all.  I wouldn't be joking to say that I could teach anyone (and I mean anyone) to do my job and within the day they would be be able to do it completely.  I feel any talent or skills I have are completely wasted and ultimately I feel like a failure.  What about new jobs you say?  Well on that front I average putting out anywhere from 5-10 (or sometimes more) applications a month and have yet to hear back from any of them.  Of course my dream job would be working at a local university or college or even any school...just really anything to get back into education.  I know most people would steer clear of educational jobs if you are looking to make more money, but when you get paid as little as I do, pretty much anything is an improvement.

So until that day comes when my phone rings for an interview, it's off to looking and hoping and praying for some changes....